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YMonday, January 31, 2005

Funny Day..
Wat a whacky day i had.. so funny lessons were as usual boring but had sw so we had fun playin badminton.. we i meant the group of 6 called "6 psychos".. hahahaha u know my fren jane has this sway thing abt sw lesson.. every sw lesson without fail she will fall badly.. n today she did at the hall it was laoud n all we did was jus stare n laugh n i went to help her up.. she slided all the way front.. poorthing la n she was grumbling all the way of how she hated this lesson.. cute la she.. atlast our dialogues n storyline is made n we r gonna hand it in tom.. so proud of our group.. hahhaa we were rehersing n writing dialogues till 7.30 pm and it was so funny, n we realise doing jus one part of a scene was so hard n all how we gonna complete the rest.. We did one scene so many times n the reaction n all had to be good.. for most of us it was jus laughter n all.. crazy ppl.. i m gonna miss all this ppl in jus a few months time everyone will be seperated.. How sad na.. Here comes bad news.. my bf is gonna go thailand for training.. its not 1 week, or 30 days.. its bloody 50 days.. i m gonna miss him big time.. n tat is all i m feeling not like my nutcase bf ok.. who beleives my crap wen i said i will change bf if i find more handsome one.. aiyoo wish it would be over soon la.. love ya lots da.. me n my sis are quarrelin big time today.. all cos of a bloody guy who came between she n her guy.. n i tink he is tryin to be nice so he can get her.. n all she says n thinks is i m interefering in her life n jus jealous n all this crap i jus dun wan her to fall in a trap of liars.. aiyaa jus decided to wash hands off her.. I tell her to think properly n advise her n she says bad things abt me like how i treat my bf n how mean i m to him.. :( sorry if i have hurt anyone, never meant to.. n vasanu if i have hurt u in anyway sorry...


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11:55 PM


YSunday, January 30, 2005


Thonsalitis..

Wat i have been suffering from this past 2 days is somethig tat has got to do with my throat, n it hurts big time.. 4.45 am on a friday morning i ended up shivering n havin high fever, i couldnt even swallow my own saliva.Never go to sch felt so bad wanted to go out with my group "6 psychos" also cannot :( , went doc got loads of medicine which i must finish consuming.. My weekends were burn by just eating tasteless porridge n soup.. Not even able to talk to anyone.. my head was aching.. My projects have piled up.. but my group members n i are doin progress.. hopefully everythin turns out well.. Jus wanna hope tat i will be fine soon.. missed my vasanu n all my frends.. well i m much better now.. to all the fun times hahahah yeay!! i still cant swallow la.. aiyaa..




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9:37 PM


YTuesday, January 18, 2005

Stress La!!
Seriously MMT is not as wat u ppl think it is.. it definitely is not easy n its not like wat parents think too.. go school shake leg n mix with bad company.. Look only first week for school and all we know is we have got tons of project... which involves lots of work.. i m not gonna have time for anything besides school till i graduate.. my goodness.. how how how.. so many things to plan to draft out... aaaaaaaaa wish i had talents or i m good in acting n much more la.. jus tired thinking abt it.. all i can say now is all the best to our team n we should work hard.. We r gonna put our heart n soul to our work so tat all of us will get the "A" grade!!


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11:10 PM


YSunday, January 16, 2005

Growin Up!
My kutty saitans are growing jus a few years ago they were cryin and crawling ard.. today was sundaresh one of the small ones whom i tot was gong to end up growin up to be a spoilt child.. but he jus turned 10 n he behaves more matured then the.. now is wen i miss all the baby cries n laughter.. hmm... met my cousins after a long time.. had fun ate nicely as well yummy mutton.. hehehe i missed my miya alot today neva got to talk to him much.. aniwae sch has started n i m gonna be really busy with loads of project n all.. hopefully i dun end up showing my temper at him again.. i love ya ma n all of my rockin frends..


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2:40 AM


YMonday, January 10, 2005

Back to School
Atlast i m back.. it felt so good to be back n see all my classmates again.. correction.. not all but most!! Got my timetable n also knew wat subs i m gonna take this semester n the worse part is i still got to work with Macromedia Flash!! N tat sucks big time!! Wish everything will go smooth this semester.. N i n chittu r busy finding for each other admirers.. hahaha k peepz havin a bad headache goin off to sleep soon so gd nite.. n hope tom will eb a better day.. my poor vincy annae is in phillipines now.. wonder how he is doing.. must be good la i jus pity the ppl there hahaha..


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10:55 PM


YSunday, January 09, 2005

I m Fat!!
I have put on so much of weight during the holidays all the work i have done at work is back cos of the amt i eat nowadays.. my stomach is bulging more n aiyoo look like i m gonna explode.. All my frens r gonna laugh at me for becoming so fat n ugly!! Aiyoo!!


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10:05 PM


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Continuation...
Life without u ppl would be meaningless.. Met the 3 ppl who knows me most n irritates me the most too.. of cos there is my darlin chittu n fars n all but this three Vasanu janey n vincent are whom i was with yesterday.. n as usual met at khatib mrt then sat ard some park i n jane went to play in the rain.. It was soo fun n those two guys were staring at us cos we were not bothered of the result after gettin wet.. then was ordered to get back into the shelter cos it got heavier.. so i sat n my baby was drying my hair n wiping me up.. so sweet illaiyaa.. the thing i should do all he doing.. Oh after janey got wet rite her brains were in her ass she started wrestling with vincent n biting him n so on.. n my idiotic bro vincy keep pushin her on me so tat i would get hurt n start whinning n tat would give him loads of happiness!! I didnt eat the whole of the day my mum n me argued.. so the after effects started takin place.. i was hungry but felt like puking and all la.. so we left there ard 6 n went to the S11 coffeshop to have dinner.. As usual we bought food ate like pigs n fed each other.. N i ate soo much.. didnt finish my rice n all but i had dessert which was ice kachang n mine was special only brown sugar syrup..Hahahaha nicely ate n was bloated.. so to get rid of the food i ate we all decided to walk to northpoint..Walked ard fooled ard then left there ard 8+ and went to jane's place.. U guys really wanna know wat we did?? U ppl will be suprised.. WE ppl at the age of 20 goin on 21 this yr one of the buffalo's birthday is on the 28th of this month n tat is my annae.. WE were actually playin "Wat is the time Mr.Wolf?? N "Four Squares.. u know catching but in the badminton court n u mus run to the corners of the court without gettin catched.. Hahahaha we jus let all our tensions sorrow n pain all out n wat we were doin yesterday was jus bein the kid which was in us all along.. Lots of ppl walked pass from indians to chinese n even foreigners.. who stopped watched laughed commented n of cos there were indian workers who lived on 2nd floors.. so there were also some whistles n all la.. wat to do this princess was playin too wat? hahaha its jus irresistable la!! :P we played n laughed n fooled ard till jane's parents came down to wait for her sisters who went out to watch a movie.. they watched us too.. We were really exhausted after tat.. but i had to rush to the int to catch the last bus to serangoon.. 853 which leaves at 2330.. so somehow caught tat bus n got home ard 12+ watched the ending part of tamil movie which was goin on in central channel.. had my shower n my thoplan called littl later vincy called.. spoke till vasanu fell asleep so left with me n my bro n to our suprise miss blabber mouth also actually called so we spoke till 4 am.. after hanging up i was still surfing the net downloading songs till 5.15 and tat is wen i fell asleep.. woke up at 12.30 today got lots of scolding for sleeping like a pig from mum n my bro.. hahaha but it was funny cos they were suprised tat i can sleep till this late.. i dun find it late though.. wat to do they typical indians illiya.. hahaha!! so its now 6.15 pm on a sunday even all i have been doing was slackin watching tv n now blogging.. cant wait to go sch n see my sch n my frends.. missed them soo much but me have grown much fatter n uglier wonder wat comments n Today is the last day of my enjoyment cos for the next 6 months.. its gonna be stress.. stress n more stress.. Final semester illiyaa so must work really hard!! Hopefully i dun slack then!! K tats all for now.. will be comin online ard 9+ later as i asked my chittu to come online so we can chat.. so see if i m free to blog later aights!! God bless n Take Care everyone!!


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6:18 PM


YSaturday, January 08, 2005

So Much Fun!!
U guys jus make me soo happy.. Today is the first time i laughed in this whole week! It felt we were back to childhood days n playin with all ur other frens.. u know wat i continue tom lazy to type... Hahahahahahaha!! Gd nite n god bless everyone...



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2:10 AM


YFriday, January 07, 2005

I got ugly hair!
I got so ugly hair i wanna rebond n highlight it.. firstly i got no money, secondly my sis for my fat ugly face tat hair do wont suite me n thirdly i m soo ugly y do i have this wishes.. Aiyaa wish i knew wat i could do to look better n i strike money or some fairy grants me my wishes!! I wanna strighten my ugly thin hair.. i m balding also.. sigh!


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10:30 PM


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She wants me to study abroad!!
First she says india is a horrible place to study.. guys are hooligans n all tat crap now she says go study there its good for u.. and she says i m givin her probs n she wish we werent born n all tat la.. i go online n ask vinod if there is a sch in india which is gd.. the news goes to his mum n she calls n says " y ma u wanna go overseas i cant understand ur mum jus two days back she said she is ok n we will see how things go now she wants u to go abroad.. how will my son take it.. she say wen i fight with him vasan will be listening to sad songs n not eating n torturing them the whole day now if i have to go away wats gonna happen to him.. I dun want to go anywhere wat can i do.. my parents arent like his they never will understand.. even if my mum wants to cos of my dad she wont! Life is such a misery wish i wasnt even like wat i m now wish i was someone they never tot i would be.. Wish i could let them see wat is the meaning of a bad daughter.. Life jus sucks ppl.. Vincent, janey n vasanu wat r we gonna do??


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3:05 PM


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She is so frickle minded...
All they know is to show tat they r proud of us wen they r in a gd mood n yell n say mean things wen their mood is bad.. Jus yesterday she was saying u n vasan study n do well if it lasts till the age of marraige i will help u talk to my dad.. now she is scolding n saying my dad is keen on the guy who is studyin abroad.. but who is tat guy he doesnt even know me and so do i.. and u mean he is gonna wait n he isnt in love with someone else n all is it?? she is so angry with me tat vasan mum was supportin for me as she said my parents were lucky to have gals like us.. nowadays gals r not like tat n all.. n my mum is saying not as if i haven her given her probs n i m a such a gd gal.. now from her own mouth she thinks i m not a gal who is studyin well but into all this love n all.. i cannot understand anyone la.. I dun wish to trust ppl who tell me tat they will help me i dun wanna understand wen my mum says she knows i m a gd gal.. If me choosing the wrong kinds of fren like gayathri n norizan is a huge mistake n i m bad for tat i dunno wat the real meaning for bad is.. i m still someone who is learning abt life u dun expect me to do everything rite.. who doesnt do mistakess??? I hate my bloody life.. the way she is crying n sayin her life is soo miserable its like i have done a sin.. She asking me if she asked me to fall in love, n is it important at this age for me to have a bf instead of concentrating.. Wat is happening my head is spinning n i m soo angry hurt n broken.. y did i even fall in love, she is thinking we dun know abt the future she jus asked me if my dad doesnt allow vasan she say i m sure gonna run away n marry him!! wat did i do so wrong.. its not tat i m not tryin my best in studies la i really wanna do well.. i cant use my hp anymore i dun want to also la.. i cant take it i jus wanna go away n study n study n study.. tats all they get happiness from.. if i dun study they got no life.. n if i dun study they wont shut up abt anything.. i m cryin now feelin so horrible.. i shouldnt have fallen in love with vasan n lead him on.. but i know he understands my situation i know if my future isnt with him i will always love him, n no matter where i m sent off too i will always love him.. my mum is so scared tat vasan's family supports me so much tat i wont care abt my parents n run away with him.. how will i let them know i m never like tat!! She sayin i m giving her a bad name n now she sayin my dad knows there is someone i m tlakin too tat is y my father is taking the overseas groom seriously n so on.. Wat have i done.. I cant go on with this anymore jus wish i was killed by something.. i got no hope on my mum to make things rite.. cos she thinks the same way as any other would.. jus wanna say no matter wat happens vasan will always be in my heart!!


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2:52 PM


YWednesday, January 05, 2005

**PoEmS**
My scribbles for the past month of holidays.. I dunno if this are counted as poems but this are the words which flow in my heart wen i think of my porukki... Hope u guys like it too but no copyin ah???
Poem 1
I love the way you hold me in your arms when I am drifting asleep.
I love the way you gently tuck my hair when you think I do not notice.
I love the way you give me butterfly kisses so thatit wouldn't disturb my sleep.
Most of all,I love the way I feel secure and loved in your arms
Poem2
Some People come into our lives and quickly go.
Some people move our souls to dance.
They awaken us to a new understanding with thepassing whisper of their wisdom.
Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.
They stay in our lives for a while, leave footprints in our hearts,
and we are never ever the same
Poem3
I don't know if it's the way you say my name,
the butterflies I still get when I see you,
or the way I can still smell you on my clothes when you leave,
but I'm never letting you go
Poem4
There are times when I wonder why you came into my life...
maybe just to make me happy or just by destiny,
but right now I really don't care whatever the reason is...
I'm just happy you're with me
Poem5
One night, the moon said to me, 'If he makes you cry,
why don't you leave him?' I looked at the moon and said,
'Moon, would you ever leave your sky?
Poem6
Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy.
It is often filled with anger and tears.
It is when you want to be together despite it all.
That is when you are truly in love
Poem7
I've fallen in love with you and I'll never let you go.
I love you more than anyone, I just had to let you know.
And if you ever wonder why, I don't know what I'll say,
but I'll never stop loving you, each and every day
Poem8
The shortest word for me is 'I.'
The sweetest word for me is 'love.'
The only one for me is 'you
Well this is the end of my scribblings.. Hope u like it porukki.. Jus wanna say although i dun usually show u how much i love u.. I do really care n love ya lots..
Muacks!!


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4:36 PM


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Shocked
Wat a horrible day i had.. woke up 9+ and had terrible flu till now actually.. Was takin a nap in the afternoon after takin flu medi.. n was waken up by mum at 6pm with such horrible things to say..Hmmm she actually talked abt my dad's trip to bahau(Malaysia), His frends son had trans of the god muneeswaran.. And he asked abt the family n teh god told him to look after the elder daughter as she may bring bad name for the family.. i m so upset abyt it i never meant to bring bad name for anyone, why my own family!! :( aiyaa.. cos of tat my dad linked my hours of hanging on my hp to me having a bf.. Well yes i do n my mum knows but i cant talk on the hp anymore as in to him especially.. So she asked me if i was gonna run away from home at the age of 21 or 22 cos of my dad torture or he not lettin me marry the person i love coc my dad has already found me a groom who is doing engineering overseas now!!How exciting rite?? but how the hell will i marry someone whom i dun even know.. besides i m still not ready for marraige!! so i said no u know if i had to run away i would have along time ago but hey i m still here n i dun intend too also.. then she went to the topic sex n she tot i may get myself pregnant... Why do i have to go thru this sad ah wat all a gal has to go thru n ur parents r afraid of cos the most impt fact is u r a gal!! Anyway my mum was really upset but she has trustn faith in me she say if anything bad happens she would commit suicide rite infront of me.. how sad is tat my own mum tellin her daughter tat!! I m never gonna let tat happen no matter wat.. guess my playfulness mus stop now n get serious with life no more outings n stuff.. Wat a life i m gonna have for the next few years but if its for the best n my family goes on well i dun mind doing anything.. Love my mum loads i m nowhere without her she is the reason y i m here so far!! muacks ma.. And to all my frends n my vasanu who will support me always thanks n i really hope u ppl will help me go thru this.. advice me n talk to me ok i need to bring my mum happiness not as if i m not now la but she deserves more then this la!!God bless everyone n God i m sorry for watever sins i have done n i will promise to watch everything i do from now on.. but pls help me with life!!


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12:48 AM


YMonday, January 03, 2005


KeSaRi Posted by Hello
Happy Birthday u gong gong!!Hahahahaha.. Finally u have turned 18 ah?? Atleast u have reached the legal age to do certain stuff now.. hope u know wat i mean.. hahaha.. Anyway keshan kumar here is my bloody sister's darling boifren.. Oh n the longest relationship going on too.. hahaha mus be cos of his handsome face n the way he talks his way out to melt her heart which makes this relationship going.. Anyway i have done two things to make dedications to u on the radio, but both failed.. all i wanted u to know tat All the best for ur o's and gd luck in watever u do.. Take care n stop nudging me on msn la u cnn.. hahaha Rock on kesari boy!! Jus cos u got handsome face n model looks dun bully the shit out of ppl la, have mercy!! hahaha


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10:40 PM


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cool Posted by Hello
Look at tat wonderful face.. now u know y he takes my breathe away.. hmm.. oh ya forgot to say after my bath it was still a boring day as i served my dad lunch and i also ate home made chicken rice.. soon after my sis finally got home from bloody school.. So we chatted n irritated each other awhile.. n tat piggy fell asleep so i came online n surfed n all la jus to kill time.. Vasanu came home ard 7+, and i met him for awhile.. so happy to see him but he was all so sweaty cos he went to play soccer.. he wanted to hug me but i moved away so many times.. paavam my bf finally i actually did la cos i also miss him wat.. He jus makes everything feel so rite la.. it feels rite being with him, it feels rite being beside him too.. hahahaha.. My next entry is for my dear kesari who has jus turned 18 today so to be conti....


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10:34 PM


YSunday, January 02, 2005

Its a boring monday movie.. with em alone at home.. and the worst is my hitler is home too.. aiyoo he never go work la.. must have gotten back home late tat he is still asleep.. i m gonna go have my shower after blogging, hopefully my annoyin sis comes home soon.. hate staying at home wen my dad is ard.. I m missing vasanu now.. never talk to him properly since sat.. i m sorry ma if i said harsh things but it was jus wat i never emant to say n it came out.. and yesterday i was still in pain n all tat i didnt have the mood to talk to anyone..Must be having lunch now at camp n here i m thinking abt ya.. Hopefully u dun choke ok?? hahaha vasanthan vasanthan.. hahaha ur house phone is ok n u can talk to me today!! i m so happy.. Love u ma n love u all ok i better go shower before he wakes up n yells.. Bad day it is gonna be..


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12:20 PM


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Boring Day!!
I sat n rot at home today i am still very tired and confused of yesterday's incident.. i m actually still havin pain but it is much better now.. Well i m very upset with the news of Mr. Ghani's death.. He is someone whom can never be forgotten cos of his contribution to the media and personal life.. His wife who is my sec sch bio teacher, is a lovely beautiful lady with a smile on her face at all times.. thinkin abt her going thru all this hurts me.. Y is it so unfair!!


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1:15 AM


YSaturday, January 01, 2005

Wat Has Happened??
Happy New Year Everyone.. Had a gd start of my new year.. Guess wat ppl i was actually possesed on tat very day.. Well lets start abt the eve ok.. i had a great time at vasan's place although we ended quarrellin alot but his family ppl were great they treated me well n i felt so welcomed.. Ate alot n talked alot too.. guess part of his family knows abt me now.. got wonderful comments from them tat till now i cant beleive.. i was said to be simple n natural beauty n all tat la.. i feel so stupid typin all this cos i know i m not as wat they said to be..
01.01.05
Met the normal impt ppl of my life i meant the 4 of us like me, janey, vincent n vasan.. We went to north point walked ard fooled ard.. had japanese food.. my meal was yummy!!Hehehe tat is y i puttin on so much of weight.. non stop eating wat do u expect.. Anyway after dinner we were walking ard awhile n decided to go somewhere peaceful n quiet.. We went to yishun park n i started getting scared cos i dunno felt weird n all.. the next thing i knew i was in great pain.. n after a long time i actually got out of watever i was going thru finding myself at a church with vincent holding my hands n saying everythin is ok now n u r ok too.. i was dazed n shocked.. my stomach felt like it was stitched n i felt my life was taken out from me.. I cant type the whole situation here anyway the point was tat i was actually possesed.. Thank god nothing has happened n i m alrite peepz Love ya all.. n God Bless


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1:28 AM