~*My LoVe DiArY*~.

YSunday, April 29, 2007

Hey.. Weekends.. i kinda hate them now.. although it used to be the best days i get to rest or be out.. but now tat ur mostly home.. weekends suck.. it sucks even worse wen ur home wit parents not talkin or always fightin.. I jus stayed watched all the drama at home an also the ones on tv.. haiz!! how i wish i was out..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHITRA!! So sad tat u have to go thru someone dear's death on ur birthday, im sure u know his blessings for u will always be there.. so stay strong da..
I have been going for soo many interviews.. and all tat happens is no response.. even if i do get replies its from a company which i rather not work in at all.. Tom i have got one at suntec city.. hopefully it goes well.. Life nowadays.. Love my frends and my pets keep me going daily.. To get my mind off things.. i watch all the downloaded series like Ugly betty.. my super duper fav show.. betty swarez,, daniel meade, justin and all of them on the sets.. im way ahead of the episodes tat are airing on channel 5 now.. my next fav is America's next top model.. always watch all the seasons without fail.. Tyra is my fav and kinda role model.. someone who shows and proves to the world tat being full figured is also beautiful..
Wish list for now.. Settle my hp bill.. Get my hair back to my old straights.. i meant rebonding and of cos gettin a gd job!! Stating all this here has jus lightened my chest.. Another week to past.. Have a gd week everyone.. Love ya Nitez.. Happy Holidays too.. haha Pathetic 1 day.. but its worth it!! Muax!! And to my love.. U mean the world to me.. ur strength and confidence in me.. is neva gonna be disappointed, i will do my best in anythin i do.. U always bein there for me.. no matter how busy u are.. The way u panic wen i say i have the slightest pain.. the way u make me laugh the way u make me angry and make the fight all worth while.. haha!! I jus love u mimi!! Ur the BEST BOYFREND IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!
Im neva gonna forget my frends.. All those wacky notty crazy ones like me.. Im neva here without u peepz.. U All rock my sock!! Qis tat line was esp for u! i love ya babe!! i know u will get thru everythin.. im here for ya.. muax!! Nori, although ur busy wit ur own life.. and at times have to handle lots of other stuff.. im here for ya too.. a call away.. Miss u all.. Sri and chippy sorry for not bein online.. Hope to see u both soon.. sri ka.. i know u missed me.. aww.. hahaha!! thanks for the sweet testi ka..

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11:55 PM

YWednesday, April 25, 2007

Im sick of all ur crap.. u have lied all ur life to us.. we dun deserve the things u do and say.. all we want is care concern and love from u.. I dun need u to be the world's best dad.. jus be a dad.. why is it so hard for u?? do u know how it feels wen u hurt my mum and us.. do u even know tat we have a heart!! im sick n tired.. i really cant go thru wit all this.. at times i jus wish im dead then to listen to my mum cry.. all her life being married to u.. tat is wat she has been doin!! God if u have eyes.. and a heart.. pls do something!!!

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1:52 PM

YSunday, April 22, 2007

Hey everyone.. wat horrible weekend it has been.. im totally stressed and been stuck at home.. sooo bored to death.. Usually my weekends wud be spend much betta wen i wasnt workin.. but now due to circumstances i have to stay home.. Well tom the 23rd of April is gonna be my first day at work as a Admin Asst.. but on tue i wanna go for the 2nd interview at Jet Quay as a Customer Service officer.. Hopefully all goes well.. its gonna be a hectic week for everyone im sure.. so have a great week ahead.. love ya all.. muax!!

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11:15 PM

YSaturday, April 21, 2007

Confusion on which job to go for...The prob is my first day of the admin job at AiA Tampines which i applied for starts this monday.. which is office hours.. 9 to 6 pm.. The jet quay interview which i went for on thurs asked me to come down for a 2nd interview on tue.. now wat do i do?? The position for the jet quay job is Customer Service officer.. better pay better prospect.. but its shift work but much more better then my SATS job.. hectic shift.. this is more to the frontline kinda job, while on the other hand.. studyin will be difficult cos of the shift and all.. so of cos the admin job there is a better possibility to study.. but i dunno.. on the long term and expectations.. a customer officer has better experience for the future or a admin asst? i had a great time today with chitra gaya and paul.. love all of them.. chit chattin laughin playin.. soo comfy.. like my own home to be in your place.. we shud do it more often.. like gaya says lets ooru suthuran wen u and she r havin holz ok?? love ya all.. i hope balqis is ok.. i miss her loads.. i miss nori awhole lot.. cos of her work she doesn have time to meet up.. cant wait to catch up wit her.. i soo wanna squeeze her to death.. sri ka.. i know ur busy but i miss u too.. chipz darlz not seein u online for a day made me miss u too.. hope to see u online soon, lots of love.. NiTez!!

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3:02 AM

YSunday, April 15, 2007

Hey and i forgot to mention my new very important thing now is my new hp bought by him... its N3250 Xpress Music.. 3250's are well known for the twist function.. which i fell in love with the first time it was in the market.. i was crazy abt the pink one... but mine now its white n red kinda classy... i love it.. with super good functions n features, im sooo happy!! thank u bee.. i know u wont wanna hear it and as u always say "my angel deserves more than this.." but after seein the price of it i cant not afford to be appreciative and i have to thank u, cos its one of my wish and u made it true.. u know wats my other wish.. is to make ur wishes come true.. so jus wait n see baby.. love u!

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4:45 AM

This post is for the 14th of April.. Wat a happy day it was.. Finally got to be out of my jail.. Like a bird let free i flew off.. Was grumpy on my way to meet my dearest.. Cos of the things goin on at home.. Was also wantin to know why paul didnt wish me the whole time.. as usual i thought he forgoabt our anniversary.. so i was kinda irritated wit tat.. cos he always forgets, but i know he loves me.. haha!! so i wasstomping ard the interchange to get a drink and i saw him at the corner almost hidin behind a vending machine.. and there was a bouquet.. of 3 roses.. 2 beautiful orange kinda red roses and 1 blue sooo sweet, my eyes enlarged from normal size.. and he made a huge smile appear on my face... i was sooo pleased and touched.. he handed me the roses.. kissed me and said "happy anniversary baby!" If i was alone at tat time i wud have bit him tat was how cute he was, but i jus saved al the bites for later.. well i had fun all the singin and flirting while helping out his aunt.. and when i finally had time alone wit him... bein away from him for a week.. i really missed him badly.. I had a sweet day.. lying on him and watchin tv can be the best feeling.. I love u da.. Muax!

Well as i was watchin tv over at his place.. there was kinda weird things i found out today, our well known comedian vivek is married to kovai sarala.. those of u who has vijay tv at home.. u all shud know abt the programme called jillunu oru jodi.. in that couple programme these 2 ppl came and hugged and exchanged their knowledge abt each other and even won 5 crores... Im in total shock.. she looks like his elder sis or somethin.. and i also thought that vivek is already a married man.. i wonder wat goes on in the kollywood industry..

I hope my sunday wud go well.. of cos it wud, wen im gonns spend it wit my lovely in laws.. of cos bein wiit him is the whole idea.. I have got 2 interviews on monday and im really lookin forward to it, its sooo hard to get a job nowadays.. almost tiring... its soo hectic to get a job!I love ya all.. Puthandu Vazhthukal to all the Indians.. Muax!!

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4:35 AM

YSaturday, April 14, 2007

Hey all.. jus wanna wish nori and rakesh happy 2 yrs anniversary and my baby and me are goin oon the 5th yr and 2mth together today... I love u mimi.. well jus wanna paste wat nori shared wit me earlier abt horoscopes.. jus wanna see how mine and his went.. Well here it is...

SivaranjiniBorn: Dec 28, 1984
in relationship with
Paul XavierBorn: Jun 29, 1987
Lovers
Part 1.
How you approach relationships in general
StrengthsYou have a sense of the extraordinary and wonderful about you. People sense that you have an insight into the larger picture, and you can communicate this idea of unity to a group. You are great at working with images, whether psychological, artistic, or cinematic. You probably love movies and music, anything with a grand theme or gesture. You are not just another dreamer. You can put your imagination to work. Your partner may have to work overtime to live up to your ideal of him/her, and to keep you down to earth and away from woolgathering. You need someone who loves to explore the dreamy psychological underside of life. You see beneath the surface of things.
Others soon learn how responsible you are, and that they can depend on you for real support. Sure, you are perhaps a little too organized and run more cool than hot, but you really do care and never let your friends down. Whatever you do is built upon a solid foundation, and that includes relationships. Too serious? Aloof? Perhaps, but you are loyal, dependable, and don't enter into relationships lightly.
An original thinker, perhaps an inventor. You have a very sharp mind, capable of real insight. You are always thinking of new ways to do things or a new use for something. You are great at finding solutions for existing problems where others have run out of ideas. Almost anything can be turned to an advantage, once you put your mind to it. Communication of all kinds, especially computers, electronics, and the new technology, is right up your alley.
A born lover. You feel right at home with your emotions, and others can't help but remark at your bright, cheery attitude. People like to be around you because you are very expressive and always quick to reveal when you like someone or something. You seldom hide what you are feeling. A love relationship is a real necessity for you and you seldom are without one. You are at home with your sexuality.
You have always had a drive to delve into the unknown. The cosmos has real trouble keeping secrets from you once you have made your mind up to investigate. You have great perseverance and staying power. You work well in a crisis; emergencies of all kinds find you on the spot, ready to test your mettle. You are brave -- and unafraid of death or people. You do well with investments, property, and other people's money. You have very little sense of propriety and tend to call a spade a spade. You like to get your hands in the real stuff of life, blood and all.
ChallengesYou don't always say just what you mean. For that matter, you may sometimes not even know how you feel about something. You tend to envy people who can always put their finger on how they feel. It can be hard for you to talk about your feelings. Any partner will have to understand this about you. Are you often moody? Yes, probably.
You are unconventional, at the expense of your own popularity. You did not care to follow in the footsteps of a traditional upbringing, and you may have left some very disappointed parents behind as you set out on your own. Independence and originality for you have been almost a private thing. You have sought it out despite the occasional disapproval of the status-quo. You may be restless and move around a lot. Your desire for personal freedom has always gone against the majority.
You find yourself hampered by authority and elders. Too many rules and regulations may inhibit or put a damper on what your heart feels like doing. You may procrastinate and put off attending to the necessities, with the result that duties tend to pile up. You might be somewhat defensive about expressing your real likes and dislikes for fear of being criticized or cut down. You don't always play by the rules.
Part 2.
How you relate to Paul Xavier
StrengthsYou understand, and are in sympathy with, his dreams and ideals, which is very important to him. There is a sense of shared vision, and you probably both like the same movies. his imagination complements yours. He may tend to idealize you.
He finds you very supportive and easy to talk to. Paul Xavier has a knack for understanding how you feel about something, putting your feelings into words that make sense to you. You might find yourself encouraging mental pursuits on his part -- writing, speaking, communications.
Paul Xavier likes talking and communicating with you. You have a knack for bringing out the best in him, making it easy for him to say what's on his mind. He feels your genuine support and enjoys what He finds himself saying and thinking in your presence. He knows that He can speak his mind when He is with you.
Paul Xavier may be a real help when it comes to disciplined thinking, mental organization, and study in general. You are able to talk about his problems easily. You are able to put into words situations in which He finds himself.
Conversations with Paul Xavier are always interesting, and He stimulates you to new and different ways of seeing things. He finds your mind fascinating and unusual. You may introduce him to new ideas and concepts.
Lovebirds! There is real mutual admiration between the two of you, and you work well together. This would hold true of a business as well as a love relationship. Essentially this is due to a sense of shared ideals and values. You appreciate the very same things in life.
This could be an excellent partnership, whether romantic or otherwise. You feel that you can really get behind Paul Xavier and push him on to new heights. Feelings run high, and there is always lots of action.
This could be a very passionate and intense relationship. You find that you are always pushing him to face himself, putting him through changes. He probably finds this exciting. There is a strong sexual attraction to all of this. This could be a good business combination, if caution is exercised.
Challenges Although you feel plenty of natural affinity to Paul Xavier, there is also a tendency to bang heads once in a while. He may head off in one direction; you, in another. You'll have to cultivate a sense of cooperation and understanding.
He may not always think highly of you and is not afraid to let you know when this is the case. You may sometimes tend to discount what He says and squelch communication. You don't always like what He thinks.
He may not appreciate your feelings and emotions, and may not like your moods. You may tend to ignore his values and ideals and take them too lightly. He senses that you may not support his sense of values. There could be a kind of cold war going on.
You may find him somewhat repressive of your feelings. He manages to put a damper on you every time you get to feeling good and comfortable. There is no way you will support this side of him, and this could lead to a real standoff.
He doesn't appreciate the way your mind works. Your words are wasted on him. You may find yourself being mentally critical of his ideals and sense of values. He doesn't like the way you think.

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3:15 AM

YMonday, April 09, 2007

Weekendz were good.. It will always be good, as long as im not home.. Baby made thosai(s) for me, was sooo cute.. u go sit in the hall then only i can do properly.. u sit her i cant concentrate wit ur eyes starrin at me.. LoL!! it was good i mus say from the first time u made broken pieces to now a perfect circle.. Im impressed!hahaha! Watchin holiday movies on tv, playing board games.. fightin.. talkin.. makin me eat somethin and realisin how stubborn i really am.. When u forced me to sleep the other day cos i was sick.. and all tat u do to make me feel betta.. I love ur massages.. makes me melt..=)
Anyways i have got an interview later will be goin wit my darlin fren jane.. from ite.. And mite be goin to visit balqis later.. if im not too late.. i miss her.. i really wnder wats happenin to her... she hasn replied or anythin.. Im prayin she is fine.. Well school is gonna start for most.. poly and private schools.. my sis too.. yeay!! for peace and quiet.. My chittu will be goin poly soon.. my darlin bestie.. im gonna miss her soo much.. All the fun we used to have in school.. how i jus wish to rewind time or make all 6 of us back into poly or somethin.. all of us are busy wit work and life.. hope there will be a get together soon.. bein in sch wit frens by ur side.. even if its 2 or 3 yrs its neva enuff.. Havin frens eva since sch days till now.. all of u are important to me.. Thank u for being part of my life.. thank u for bein there weneva im down or in my craziest times.. I love u all.. now i must get ready to go for my interview!!Wish me luck everyone!!Thank u by the way.. hahaha!!muacks!!

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12:50 PM

YMonday, April 02, 2007

Oh u know i had this terrifying dream... I cant really remember.. but i know i was in this beautiful place... the water and wooden bridge over the clear blue water.. hahaa! the funny part Singapore Actor Siva, he acts in channel 5 too.. He was so called my bf in my dream.. seriously i got no idea why... all i remember is we both were terrified and tryin all our best to escape from the huge alligator which was after me... it kept chasing, it cud jump off from a cliff and ran as fast as a disgugting lizard!!! i hate lizards!!im very afraid of them.. So it kept chasin me.. i was its food i guess... i was sooo afraid.. he tried soo much to help me fight it.. i cried alot.. and i fell and the stupid alligator bit my foot... i bleeded sooo badly.. siva helped to pull me and carry me.. i know i was in pain n bleedin badly.. i dun really know wat happen after tat... Was so scared tat i wanted to be a kpo and wanted to knoe wat my dream went.. so i browsed thru and found this webby.. it had the interpretation of it, so here goes....
To see an alligator in your dream, symbolizes treachery, deceit, and hidden instincts. It may be a signal for you to take a new perspective on a situation. It may also represent your ability to move between the material world of waking life and the emotional, repressed world of the unconscious. Alternatively, the alligator represents healing powers and qualities.
To dream that you are running away from the alligator, indicates that you are unwilling to confront some painful and disturbing aspect of your unconscious. There is some potentially destructive emotion that you are refusing to acknowledge andowning up to.
According to biblical interpretations, an alligator suggests that leviathan is king over the children of pride.
So i guess its kinda true.. Dreams are based on what happens wen ur awake.. Hmm... Im definitely in lots of pain and probs...

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7:25 PM

Haiz!!Im dietin! Dietin from today... Sri akka is helpin me.. So is bernie.. wit all her tips.. i know for sure once im at work im not gonna be munchin or snackin.. Im gonna be strict wit my meals. im gonna stop sweet stuff.. i know its crazy!! Genie without chocs n cakes.. its no genie at all... but i have too.. i wanna loose weight for myself and to shut my dad up.. i need to get off the bulge in my tummy.. i dun need to look like a model jus nice wud do, besides lookin good will make anyone feel good abt themselves.. Thanks dear sis.. Well balqis was discharged on sat, and she had a doctor's appointment today at 3, and she msged me sayin she has got another surgery this thurs cos the lump in her throat is cancer!! im sooo worried.. but i have got faith and wit all of our faith and support she knows she will pull thru this.. im sure after the surgery, ur gonna be completely fine my dearie!! i love u, hope everyone had a gd weekend.. its borin monday again.. most of u wud be at work waitin for the time to head back.. while some of us are stressed waitin for a gd job.. haiz!! im worn out by jus cleanin the hamsters and their cage.. the amount of energy the 2 of them have is uncontrollable.. i was running ard tryin to prevent them from fallin or gettin hurt.. gosh!! backache now!! my mum was laughin at me and she cud say " good trainin, this is wat which will happen wen u have kids next time, they wont stay in one place!" Hmm... i chippy darlz and sri akka are havin food conversations.. on wats a yes and wats a no no!! so will blog more later!! Muax!!

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5:05 PM