She is so frickle minded...
All they know is to show tat they r proud of us wen they r in a gd mood n yell n say mean things wen their mood is bad.. Jus yesterday she was saying u n vasan study n do well if it lasts till the age of marraige i will help u talk to my dad.. now she is scolding n saying my dad is keen on the guy who is studyin abroad.. but who is tat guy he doesnt even know me and so do i.. and u mean he is gonna wait n he isnt in love with someone else n all is it?? she is so angry with me tat vasan mum was supportin for me as she said my parents were lucky to have gals like us.. nowadays gals r not like tat n all.. n my mum is saying not as if i haven her given her probs n i m a such a gd gal.. now from her own mouth she thinks i m not a gal who is studyin well but into all this love n all.. i cannot understand anyone la.. I dun wish to trust ppl who tell me tat they will help me i dun wanna understand wen my mum says she knows i m a gd gal.. If me choosing the wrong kinds of fren like gayathri n norizan is a huge mistake n i m bad for tat i dunno wat the real meaning for bad is.. i m still someone who is learning abt life u dun expect me to do everything rite.. who doesnt do mistakess??? I hate my bloody life.. the way she is crying n sayin her life is soo miserable its like i have done a sin.. She asking me if she asked me to fall in love, n is it important at this age for me to have a bf instead of concentrating.. Wat is happening my head is spinning n i m soo angry hurt n broken.. y did i even fall in love, she is thinking we dun know abt the future she jus asked me if my dad doesnt allow vasan she say i m sure gonna run away n marry him!! wat did i do so wrong.. its not tat i m not tryin my best in studies la i really wanna do well.. i cant use my hp anymore i dun want to also la.. i cant take it i jus wanna go away n study n study n study.. tats all they get happiness from.. if i dun study they got no life.. n if i dun study they wont shut up abt anything.. i m cryin now feelin so horrible.. i shouldnt have fallen in love with vasan n lead him on.. but i know he understands my situation i know if my future isnt with him i will always love him, n no matter where i m sent off too i will always love him.. my mum is so scared tat vasan's family supports me so much tat i wont care abt my parents n run away with him.. how will i let them know i m never like tat!! She sayin i m giving her a bad name n now she sayin my dad knows there is someone i m tlakin too tat is y my father is taking the overseas groom seriously n so on.. Wat have i done.. I cant go on with this anymore jus wish i was killed by something.. i got no hope on my mum to make things rite.. cos she thinks the same way as any other would.. jus wanna say no matter wat happens vasan will always be in my heart!!
•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
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