Shocked
Wat a horrible day i had.. woke up 9+ and had terrible flu till now actually.. Was takin a nap in the afternoon after takin flu medi.. n was waken up by mum at 6pm with such horrible things to say..Hmmm she actually talked abt my dad's trip to bahau(Malaysia), His frends son had trans of the god muneeswaran.. And he asked abt the family n teh god told him to look after the elder daughter as she may bring bad name for the family.. i m so upset abyt it i never meant to bring bad name for anyone, why my own family!! :( aiyaa.. cos of tat my dad linked my hours of hanging on my hp to me having a bf.. Well yes i do n my mum knows but i cant talk on the hp anymore as in to him especially.. So she asked me if i was gonna run away from home at the age of 21 or 22 cos of my dad torture or he not lettin me marry the person i love coc my dad has already found me a groom who is doing engineering overseas now!!How exciting rite?? but how the hell will i marry someone whom i dun even know.. besides i m still not ready for marraige!! so i said no u know if i had to run away i would have along time ago but hey i m still here n i dun intend too also.. then she went to the topic sex n she tot i may get myself pregnant... Why do i have to go thru this sad ah wat all a gal has to go thru n ur parents r afraid of cos the most impt fact is u r a gal!! Anyway my mum was really upset but she has trustn faith in me she say if anything bad happens she would commit suicide rite infront of me.. how sad is tat my own mum tellin her daughter tat!! I m never gonna let tat happen no matter wat.. guess my playfulness mus stop now n get serious with life no more outings n stuff.. Wat a life i m gonna have for the next few years but if its for the best n my family goes on well i dun mind doing anything.. Love my mum loads i m nowhere without her she is the reason y i m here so far!! muacks ma.. And to all my frends n my vasanu who will support me always thanks n i really hope u ppl will help me go thru this.. advice me n talk to me ok i need to bring my mum happiness not as if i m not now la but she deserves more then this la!!God bless everyone n God i m sorry for watever sins i have done n i will promise to watch everything i do from now on.. but pls help me with life!!
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