~*My LoVe DiArY*~.

YWednesday, March 30, 2005

Life GoeS oN...

Well.. wat can i say.. sch is comin to an end within a month or so.. n all we r doin is doing project n havin fun.. N as for my love life i m gettin over it slowly but i will never forget the happy times of the relationship n not forgettin the person who has given me lots of memories.. but now me stayin awake n cryin all nite has stopped cos i have came to my senses.. all i can ask for is he turns into a better person gets a gd career n marries a gd gal n so on.. Well gd luck to u!! As for me life carries on.. i have started on bein myself lookin at guys plain a fool matchmaking chits n elias oh n ya jane n keng yam how can i forget them.. Thinkin abt all this jus brings a smile on my face.. They have made a difference n will never forget this 2 yrs.. Hopefully we go higher nitec together.. Aiyaa i m upset chitz wont be there with me but i m controllin my tears.. maybe the last day of exams are then i burst out.. hahaha dun laugh at me k chitz?? Well glad sundari has started to give a tot abt the person she once said she didnt like.. n it was not luv n all tat crap la now wenever se sees him should see the glow n smile on her face can see all 32 teeth showing.. hahaha i m serious.. she gets soo excited or upset n all kinds of mix feelings n all this is cos of him tat wonderful boy from ict called kavin!! One day i sure gonna let him know la.. Wonder if he is gettin wrong signals from us.. N chitz if u dun disturbin tat poor kumaran with me i m gonna tell.. Tat kumaran mus be some guy who wants a pretty gal n dunno wat all me like his akka already.. hehehe anyway he seems to be nice especially even after our nonsense he still smiles n waves n all ah?? hehehe i admit he is handsome n all but he got a better life.. N me bein in a relaionship is a no unless its a guy who realli understands n is like the way i want him too then we shall see..tat will onli be like wen few yrs before my parents ask me to get married.. Hahahaha i wonder who i will end up with.. n whose hearts i m gonna break hopefully they understand la.. till then i m a free person who will make frends n all atleast it will keep me movin so tat i dun stay stuck like my last 4 yrs of torture.. All this is like my life which i m writin abt here.. Love u all who has been a part of me n still are a part of me.. cos if there is no u i wont be wat i have grown up to be today..!! Haahahha like some advertisement ah??

•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
5:45 PM

YTuesday, March 22, 2005

OnE WeEk Of BoReDoM....

Well my term break started yesterday.. but yesterday was a gd day cos i got to go out with my good frends after much convincing at home, i was able to get out.. Thanks god!! Thanks J2 = Jane who helped me with the convincing.. For the next few days i m gonna be rottin at home.. with unwanted memories n tots.. wish i could get over it!! Somebody pls help me get over with my mind games.. Anyway i actually spoke to him today abt wat i had to say.. With the character like his n the person i m i dun think it will eva work out even after marraige if we ever did its gonna be full of probs as my mum said, i had a hard time trying to tell him to move on really hurt man... Me tellin the person i was with to find someone else but i guess everything happens for a reason.. n guess he will be much happier off with someone else.. As for me its gonna be school frends carrer the last thing is gettin married tat will be my parents part.. but till then of cos i m not gonna stop eye washin n admirin guys.. hahaha if a gal doesnt do all this she can go to hell man!! Anyway cant wait to go to sch in thurs atleast can see 3 of my frends again.. Bored now la listenin to songs with my family downstairs makin noise abt dunno wat.. hmmm.... as my msn nick says.. Love.. Pyar.. Ishq.. Mohabbat.. Cinta.. Kadhal.. Ai.. No matter wat language it is the meaning is the same.. but it was jus not meant for me n u..

•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
9:40 PM

YSaturday, March 19, 2005

Feelin Lost...

I have tried lookin at other guys.. tried thinkin abt other things.. tried makin a fool out of my self but all i think abt is him... Why do i feel tat way.. The truth is i do love him but to let him go was the best for me n him.. no mistakes in the present n noone will get hurt.. isnt tat wat i really want.. i really hope i can get over it.. Its been 3 nights now where i cry myself to sleep.. The talks we used to have are also gone.. all cos he pushed his limits n me couldnt take it.. My mum thinks its best for me n so does my frend.. have i done the rite thing?? i dunno but i guess the most impt thing now is school.. Wish he is ok n he can be as normal, pls watever u do jus do it to prove urself tat u r worth it to others k.. tat will make me happy.. I miss him badly n i wanna hear him too.. but i jus have to find ways to stop myself.. Love does hurt guys.. Anyway i dunno wat else to say.. Stay happy wherever u r..

•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
12:20 PM

YWednesday, March 16, 2005

The Worst Day Eva..

Was a horrible day with people who was my fren thinks i m framing him, and me n vasan are ova.. seriously ova.. Every little thing i had for him has been washed away.. Guess his mum is happy i got off his back.. n he doesnt need to go running back to his beloved mum n complaining abt me.. I had other things to worry abt my sch my exams my projects and in between all tat his numerous calls jus to ask me lame questions.. u think i got the time n energy to be all happy love dovey n mushy wen u call.. i already told u how my temper is gonna be till my exams are over.. n u agreed to give me space.. but did u keep up to ur words.. Yesterday was the maximum amount of patience i gave but u jus took it all n broke into million pieces.. After giving u all the chances n forgiveness u asked for, i did it for u like a fool, n all i asked for was time n i needed to get out of the hurt ur parents were goin thru cos of ur stupidity.. u know wat all they questioned me?? guess it neva mattered to u.. cos all u cared abt was urself n only u... Guess its no point cryin over spilled milk cos nothing is eva gonna be the same again.. even if i wanted my parents wont allow me too.. jus wanna say ur memories will always stay within but love was not meant for me n u.. Jus take care and all the best to u in ur future.. Well comin back to my fren who thinks i frame him n isnt happy with wat i say to him.. here goes.. i jus wanna let u know how i feel nothing to do with accusin u or anything.. if u cant even understand tat.. i cant help it.. cos u dun wanna me to bother u i wont.. u know wat i heard wen u were mumblin the other time.. wat else diff would u have said this time, wat ever it was la.. jus be happy n get ur life straightened out as soon as possible.. cos this is leading u to no gd.. take care n god bless ya.. Well for the frends who still love me n know abt me.. i love u all too n my heart is with u all werever u go.. muuaacckks guys!! U make a part of me.. Gd nites!!

•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
11:04 PM

YSunday, March 06, 2005

Veer Zaara

Jus wanna share the two of my fav song lyrics with u ppl..

Main Yahaan Hoon
Jaanam Dekh Lo Mit Gayi DooriyanMain Yahaan Hoon,

Yahaan Hoon, Yahaan Hoon, Yahaan..
( Jaanam Dekh Lo Mit Gayi DooriyanMain Yahaan Hoon,

Yahaan Hoon,

Yahaan Hoon, Yahaan )...(2)Kaisi Sarhadein, Kaisi

MajbooriyanMain Yahaan Hoon,

Yahaan Hoon, Yahaan Hoon... Yahaan
Tum Chhupa Na Sakogi Main Woh Raaz HoonTum Bhula Na

Sakogi Woh Andaaz

HoonGunjtaa Hoon Jo Dil Mein To Hairaan Ho KyonMain

Tumhare Hi Dil Ki To Aawaz HoonSun Sako To Suno

Dhadkanon

Ki ZabanMain Yahaan Hoon, Yahaan Hoon,

Yahaan Hoon, YahaanKaisi Sarhadein, Kaisi

MajbooriyaanMain Yahaan Hoon, Yahaan Hoon,

Yahaan Hoon, Yahaan
Main Hi Main Ab Tumhaare Khayaalon Mein HoonMain

Javaabon Mein Hoon, Main Sawalon Mein HoonMain

Tumhaare Har Ek Khwaab Mein Hoon BasaaMain

Tumhaari Nazar Ke Ujaalon Mein HoonDekhti Ho

Mujhe Dekhti Ho JahaanMain Yahaan Hoon,

Yahaan Hoon, Yahaan Hoon, YahaanJaanam

Dekh Lo Mit Gayi Dooriyan ... Yahaan Hoon...

YahaanMain Yahaan Hoon, Yahaan Hoon,

Yahaan Hoon, Yahaan

Tere Liye
Tere Liye Hum Hain Jiyeh, Honthon Ko SiyeTere Liye

Hum Hain Jiyeh, Har Aansoo PiyeDil Mein Magar

Jalte Rahe, Chaahat Ke DiyeTere Liye, Tere LiyeTere

Liye Hum Hain Jiye, Har Aansoo PiyeTere Liyeh Hum

Hain Jiye, Honthon Ko SiyeDil Mein Magar Jalte Rahe

, Chahat Ke DiyeTere Liye, Tere Liye
Zindagi Le Ke Aayehe Hai Beete Din Ki

Kitaab(2)Ghere

Hain Ab Humein Yaadein Be-HisabBin Poochhe

Mile Mujhe Kitne Sare JawabChaha Tha Kya, Paya Hai

Kya, Humne DekhiyeDil Mein Magar Jalte Rahe, Chaahat Ke DiyeTere Liye, Tere Liye
Kya Kahoon Duniyaa Ne Kiya, Mujh Se Kaisa Bair(2)Hukm

Tha..? Main Jiyun Lekin Tere BaghairNaadaan Hai Woh Kahte

Hain Jo Mere Liyeh Tum Ho GhairKitne Sitam Humpe Sanam

Logon Ne KiyeDil Mein Magar Jalte Rahe, Chahat Ke

DiyeTere Liye, Tere Liye
Tere Liye...Chahat Ke DiyeTere Liye, Tere Liye...(4)

•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
6:55 PM

If only...

Well well.. sorry for not blogging regularly.. its all cos of sch, projects n stuff.. Despite all this life has been fun with my buddies.. never imagined to have such gd frends, realli thankful too.. Love u guys!! U know i always wished tat love or bein in a relationship or marraige life was gonna be like how bollywood movies were..

But i guess all tat is jus up to u to have ur life ur way.. Love has become so important to most ppl nowadays, where ppl even dun mind giving up years of our lives jus for the person they love, or jus be so involved in love tat even if its over its drives them to an extent of loosing their minds.. wen i said loose their mind i was reffering to the tamil movie "kadhal" where my bf acted hehehehe okok , the two youngsters who fell in love although the difference in their status or religion wen in love all they knew was to be there for one another n understand each other.. well although the gal moved on cos of objections at home, the guy was devastated n he eventually became crazy.. n the other story i knew a person did for love was spend 22 yrs of his life in pakistan prison jus for the sake that the love of his life would lead a happy marraige life with her husband whom is the same person who put him to prison, tat is veer zaara a hindi movie by shah rukh n preity zinta.. veer is shah rukh tat gorgeous man who is mesmerizing n preity the pretty woman.. hehehe really touching love story is a must watch movie.. it has got lots of awards n stuff, me bein a sentimental freak was cryin n cryin throughout the movie n my mum was laughin at me cry, n she loves tat movie too.. i jus said half of the story there is still more to it so do watch it k.. There are ppl who still think love is a waste of time, tat depends on each n everyones opinion but once u r in it everything changes.. u tend to love everything n everyone ard u much more.. hehehe as for me.. life is a never ending story.. all i can wish for is if onli my life was like a fairytale or a love movie.. N yea i m still figuring out who tat dream person of mine is.. Love is really a pleasant thing.. not for everyone tats coz its not the rite or special person i guess.. so start loving "Love" peepz.. Love ya loads everyone.. My janey its ur 21st Birthday na.. Jus wanna say a Happy 21st Birthday Dearie!! Spread ur wings n take off but dun fly too high or else i cant reach ya.. ok hehehehe mmuuaacckkksss blurie.. Keep tat blur look always n tat idiotic smile on ur face always too.. hahahaha

•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
6:50 PM

YThursday, March 03, 2005

Guess we r still frends after all..

][--Elias--][ says:
Can you forgive me again? I don't know what I said.But I didn't mean to hurt you.Please forgive me If I act alittle strange.you looked at me,You're not shouting anymore,You're silently broken.I'd give anything now to kill those words for you.You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.You've finally seen all that's left of me.So hard to see. So hard to breathe.You're my one true frend

This is the smses which i was getting from net.. was really confused at first but wen i came online he told me tat it was him.. really sweet na, never expected such words from him... well i do forgive ya n u r still my frend so be happy k?? :o)

•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
12:33 PM