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 It takes an hour to love someone,
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YSaturday, April 30, 2005

ScrEw UrSelVeS!!!
Quite sometime since i blogged ah? n its all cos of sch n my final yr n bla bla.. man really tired of all this really waiting for a gd break.. well i have gd stuff n bad stuff, k think i should start with bad... hmm i m stressed out n i think i m growin fatter which makes me look more ugly!! n secondly peppz who have comments abt me pls get a life!!! Well y i m sayin this cos i m a 20+ yr old indian gal whom unlike other gals go party ard fool ard with guys or do watever the youngster of singapore r doing.. i m nothing like tat.. N u seriously have a doubt to clear abt me come fuckin ask me not assume stuff n talk abt me, well some ppl may think i m hurt or mad but the reason i m feelin this way cos its not gd as in this is how u talk abt ppl n the whole community would talk, Hate it wen ppl jus assume things n say without knowing the true fact, n the last reason is watever i m or i m not wat is their prob i dun owe anyone a bloody live so get over it, i m who i m n wat i wanna be!! n i m no gal who loafs ard the street with mini's or a bloody tube droolin at guys!! M a person who is not from a family who has been loving towards us its jus like we used to have fear n fights n so much of drama tat now wenever someone cares for me i like them i care for them double the amt n would do any favour for them but if tat behaviour of mine shows off to ppl tat i m cheap or wat so ever.. one sentence go screw urself!! Hahahaha!!hmm i m feelin much better after talkin to my frends abt it J gals think ajay is a looser n elias doesnt think badly abt me hopefully, chitra says she knows me well n they actually asked her qus n i guess she mus be in doubts, jus a word to u chitz watever they say i m, i was tellin the truth to u n i neednt need to lie!! Thanks j gals for makin me feel better in the afternoon!! Muuuaacckss!Now for gd news i m gonna finish one of my projects yiippee!! happy but i think i m not creative enuff n its not nice too simple aaaahhh sad but who cares i m finishin.. hahaha the other one is i have got a new fren who has been studyin in my sch for gonna be 2 yrs but its since last month tat i made frends with him, kavin oh kavi!! kutty la actualli this kutti is really sweet n cute with his baby like voice at night n his grandpa lectures in the morning.. crazyman, well so far its been gd knowin him, always teases me to make me laugh u know tats his technique to cheer me up! loosu vetti, vetti is the nick i gave him.. it means a guy who has nothin to do always wasting time n slackin at home get it?? hahaha u know the true fact is i m clear in my heart tat he is my frend n i think he is too la but yest his smses were really not wat i expected anyway he says expect the unexpected, so who knows.. hahaha elias was always goin like u dun steal kavin u dun steal kavin, i dun have intentions to do such things n i m not tat kinda gal also.. N anyway i dun think kavin will fall in love unless he knows someone who likes him or he finds someone he likes, n so u ppl dun worry he wont fall for a gal like me, n chitz pls k go open ur mouth or ur heart n talk to him, be his frend i m sure he wont avoid ya, he is soo sweet n nice to me, although i think i irritate him too, he is a real gd frend if u want him to be, now he is at a cc at a bloody show wonder wat the hell he is doin.. mus be washin eyes la wat else?? i can say i m missin his smses but Kavin if u eva read this rite Chitra loves u!! N thanks for wakin me up today vetti, n wait long long for the guys in my dreams to be u k!! hahaha n oh ya sorry monday our date is a no cos u know my dad by now.. Love u all guys u ppl rock!!!


•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
9:54 AM


YSaturday, April 16, 2005

Dreams..
Wat do they really mean.. do i beleive them or do i jus ignore them, but atleast they r the reasons y i wake up the next day or carry on living.. its cos if there were no dreams i will never wanna be doing all tat i m goin thru today.. its cos of our dreams tat we work hard rite?? those are for our future.. but wat abt dreams where u meet ur special someone or ur soulmate whom u cant figure out who he realli is in real life... I m really confused he makes me smile n he brings happiness takin away all my pain n worries but wen my eyes open everythin is jus gone wen will all this come true.. n who is tat person?? Does my dreams have links to my daily life.. or is it tryin to tell me somethin which is gonna happen?? i seriously dunno, its drivin me insane n i cant tolerate it.. but the fact is i m happy in my dreams n i love it.. Wat do i do?? Haiizzz realli confused!!
Well.. yesterday was a day two things seemed new to me.. Firstly yesterday morning i took bus 24 to sch as we were gettin late.. Me n chitz met keng yam in the bus n we were as usual havin our talks abt wat we gonna do with our projects n all.. I think at paya lebar this cute guy boarded the bus.. he was wearing an orange tee n a brown pants lookin like a singaporean indian but maybe punjabi or somethin, he sat at the front seat where he could see everyone, n we were sittin at the back.. so i actualli realise tat guy kept lookin at me n everytime i looked he would turn away.. so i told chitz n she moved out so tat she could see if he was lookin or not.. n true enuff wen he looked she was there n he became shy tat we noticed him n he was smilin.. hahaha he is really cute though! n he continued la everytime i spoke to them n turned he would look n i couldnt control my laughter.. knowing me hahaha so i smiled back being courteous hahaha.. n i turned away to continue my conversation with those two idiots.. hehehe the next minute he was standing n askin someone something, seeing tat chitz n keng yam started like look he is standing here so he could see u better n all, my goodness this two can really say a whole lots of things la know y?? too much of serials hahah!! N u know wat the next time i looked at him he actualli said somethin to me from there, for a moment my vision blurred!! n i actaualli told him i couldnt hear him, n he said somethin again n i seriously couldnt hear, so he actually walked towards me u know.. how sweet n he came to me n said hi, so i said hi too n the two of them were laughin n gigglin n all , he asked if i was schoolin or workin so i said scholin n he told me he was new to sg n he was workin n all, n chitz asked if he could speak tamil n he so cutely reeplied " konjam konjam teriyum" hahah it meant he knows little little n then she opened her mouth n asked if he wanted my number but he heard it wrongly n said no i got no number!! hahaha n i had to go our stop came so i said i gtg then he was like where do i live n all so i said serangoon n before he could ask anythin else i seriously had to get down so i went like bye.. n i alighted.. n he gave me a last smile n the bus took off.. hahaha!! How my bus love story??
The next thing is my frends n i were extremely quiet yesterday mus be cos we were too afraid of wat was comin n we had to redo project n we haven started on few.. But i tried my best to be normal but of cos chitz my vengayam frend also knows we were all bein quiet.. hopefully we get thru all our probs n do well la!! God Bless us n I love u all.. N to the guy in the bus.. if we were fated to meet we would once again.. hahaha n hey hello!! I think he is cute n tats it!


•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
7:45 PM


YThursday, April 14, 2005

I'm Fuckin Sway!!!
Damn myself la i m jus soo screwed up.. nothing has gone rite today, work up cos of my dad wanting me to do all his bloody office work went to shop like zillion times n i had so much in my mind tat i freakin lost my purse somewhere!!! Damn myself i either dropped it somewhere wen i went to central with my mum or left it in a plastic bag which my mum accidentally would have thrown it!!! I know think my ic is in it too... wat the fuck m i gonna do without my bus pass where i was travellin so happily in buses without worryin abt payin n all.. now screw myself tat i need to pay n as if i m soo financially stable!! N since monday my timing has been bad first it was my brand new hp charger n warranty card which went missin in sch n now this!! I m sooo freakin sway.. I have got projects not started n i dunno wat i m gonna do wen some freakin asshole deleted my folder on the comp which i use... damn tat perosn man!! Fuck it la my life is always screwed up n forever will be!!


•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
11:37 PM


YTuesday, April 12, 2005

Hehehehe me on the phone with chitz now puttin for her all kinds of songs jus to bring tots of u ppl know who rite?? anyway Kavin if u ever read this jus wanna say chitra got loads to tell u or actualli sing to u, by the way she is a gd singer too so hope she gets her dreams one day.. Anyway i m soo happy to make her sing now n also give tots abt him.. hahahaha love ya di!!


•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
11:10 PM


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Hmmm.. everything is okay with me chitz n all i m soo happy tat we r back to usual.. well quite a few things happen for the past few days good n bad actualli.. i got a new phone n a new line yippee!! atlast i see colours n i got a camera too.. hahah the next day i actually brought the whole box to sch cos my charger wasnt workin so wanted to get it exchanged but some bloody ass stole it!! May the person rot in hell!! hahaha anyway since i have got such great frends, keng yam bought me a charger how sweet thanks alot boy!! hehehe well jus love every part of my life besides projects n stress wish will be over soon.. well tats all for today gonna get my ass to bed so gd nite sweet dreams n love ya all!!


•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
10:55 PM


YWednesday, April 06, 2005

FrIeNdShIpS...
Friends who were so close shared almost everything laughed our lungs out.. had same views n disagreed on some ppl.. Now everything has changed.. n it all happens wen our sch is nearing the end.. Why does all this happen?? y cant there be frendship tat lasts like the way we always want it to be.. I m shocked n confused today.. Realli upset n hurt too, Past three days since chitz been acting weird n wen i ask her y, she is a person who shares everything with me, for the first time said nothin n its personal so i said fine n i left her.. but she continued showing faces n not joining in, n all we tot was she is pissed with either one of us or actually all 3 of us.. Wen i meant 3 it was me jane n jieni.. N today she avoids us n was soo quiet n she didnt wanna come wen we called her n all she said was she didnt feel like coming.. tat moment i guess she knew my mood went off n i had nothing to say to her cos i realli wanted to know wat the hell was on her mind?? My mood was really down the whole day even at jieni's place i was surprisingly quiet n all i did was smile n talk wen they wanted me too.. Aiyaa how come all of a sudden she says she feels like the odd one out n we leave her out i mean we always talk together disturb each other together n so on.. n y she makes it hard on her self n thinks abt all kinds of things.. k it may be stress but we all r stress too.. u mean we all dun want to go to the poly n we dun have expectations to meet.. we all do but wat can we do but jus do our work n give it our best.. Everyone has probs at home.. its jus a matter of u knowing if they do or not, as u know some ppl like to say n share n some dun, all of us go thru the same things u do.. u know y tats called life n it isnt easy for any of us.. All i wanna know is if u really think we left u out y werent u openin up to say wat u felt, wen we had probs with him all u said was i m nothin like tat i would atleast say how i m feelin.. now u tell me by doing this today did u jus not prove urself wrong, all i want is a strong frendship between all of us.. no fights no quarrels no arguements.. I m sorry if u think tat way n i seriously dun mind sacrificing my conversations i have with them.. n if u think i m not allowing u to get involved with them i m sorry too but i dunno wat i have done n wat i should do.. i dun even know wat i m sayin here is rite or wrong.. wat i m doin this moment is my hands are typin down how i feel n my tears is used for a gd reason today.. i m crying for my frend whom i love soo much n want to be with as long as i may live.. But if tat has to end jus wanna say ur memories will forever stay n not a single bit m i gonna let it fade.. gd nite n love ya all guys..


•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
11:45 PM