Where do i start n how do i put it in words.. let me see, i doubt he will eva realise this.. He was my sec schmate whom i always had a small thing over him in the beginning, maybe it was his dimples.. hahaha but i never made it a big issue.. i wasnt close to him though we would only speak if we had too, but i was close to the rest of his frends... as everyone knows im such a chatterbox n non stop noise.. so i got along pretty well with guys even those bengs or wat so eva la.. wen i retained sec 3 tat is wen everything changed, i was pratha's classmate n of cos there was darlin seles n all, i think in one of our truth or dare games i actually admitted of the crush i had on him n tats it everyone passed it on n made it such a big issue.. at tat point of time premkumar my very gd fren of tat time used to have a big big crush on pratha, n i think she started likin him too, n wat did ass did was she told me the day i go on with arul is the day she will accept prem.. at that point of time i could have killed her.. but i m a nice person so i left her alone..But later on his classmates started forcing him, cos they knew i had a crush on him, n i got letters which he never wrote abt n all tat.. i knew he didnt like me at all in the first place, but we started talkin n gettin to know one another, he was so against to havin a gf cos of his background n being a gangster n so on... but i accepted it i spoke to him abt it he felt better towards me later n things jus started happening, n i can never imagine a time being that happy.. he was everything tat i tot abt dreamt abt even talked abt.. his name was like somethin noone shud eva say somethin bad abt.. I know he liked me, wen the time he stroked my hair n held my hands n goodness at tat moment everything seemed perfect, u know i have never had crushes n fell in love in pri sch or knew abt love matters till i met arul, n he was very impt to me cos the manly role in my house all he was doin was giving me probs beatin n fightin with my mum, how will i eva talk to him?? but arul was there now n he listens n he knew my pain not long after my mum found out made a big fuss, made the truth come out from my mouth.. tot i was going crazy cos every book i had had his name written on it, i loved him more then i loved myself la, for all i knew was him me n a future of hapiness cos he seemed promisin n he was the nicest person he gave me confidence gave me hope wen my parents found out tat everything was going to be ok n he is not gonna say gdbye cos of it.. N after all tat.. he did he left me n i was lost n my world of hopes dreams n confidence shattered.. He fell in love with someone else n he is happy i guess.. wateva he is doin n whoever he marries jus want him to have a gd life, n hope he doesnt forget me n i really wish at 1 point of time he thinks to tell his children there was this gal whom i loved called "Ranjini.." and as for me im jus gonna go ahead n get my heart broken but not anymore la.. i dun intend to give it to anyone who is jus out there to use n leave me..