Hmm... slept at 4 am, was pourin out my past to paul.. and gosh i made him cry... he was sooo hurt.. u know thinkin of wat i went thru for the past 18 yrs of my life.. i dunno how it all came out to him last nite.. all this was not even mentioned to my bestfren or my past relationships. Haiz.. im tired.. went to tekka.. tidied up my messy lookin brows.. n now im neat.. hehe.. did some shoppin for girls only!! Hahaha me n my sis.. came back and had to go to the central to get flowers and prayer stuff. Watched tv abit.. and now im online.. waitin for the 2 darlz of mine.. Hopefully bee wud come.. he has an exam tom.. he is really strugglin and doin all he can jus for us.. i really appreciate it dear.. i mean i know ho tough it is.. and also yest i said so much abt my past.. that u had way lesser sleep then me.. i really hope u manage to get thru... although u prefer startin from scratch.. i want u to go to a course u prefer...I know u will make it.. my faith n hop in u is always there.. u know tat dont ya sachu? Hahaha who is Sachu.. its paul.. his tamil name is Sasitheran.. and there i shrunk it to Sachu.. haha!! Now for the real tiredness.. Im really tired of lettin ppl know im not wat they think.. im tired of ppl blaming me for things i haven done, im tired of ppl sayin unwanted stuff abt me, im tired tired n really tired of proving to ppl who doesnt even deserve to know.. cos tellin them or showing them the person i really am, is not gonna be a use.. cos all they do is judge u and criticize u, and the minute u do 1 mistake.. they assume all the others were done by u too.... Im a individual who has a mind of her own.. speaks for herself.. and knows wat she wants.. all this is only known n shown to the ppl who really knows me, So all u retarded dumbwits, lifeless creatures.. pls go fuckin lookin after ur own back.. then lookin after ours.. cos pointin fingers at others is not gonna gain u any award!!Mofo's!!! Oh and for my lovelies... Kissy Chitra Dila Bee Arun and those many many ppl who loves me... I LoVe u All... Think abt it?? Someone comes n tells me ur a bad influence!! For heaven's sake if im bad influence.. wat the hell are u??? Gosh some ppl... MuacKz!!