It takes a minute to like someone,
It takes an hour to love someone,
It takes a life time to forget someone.
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YWednesday, September 20, 2006


The WoRsT tHiNg..

Im havin a very difficult time with probs at home, financial wise and that is really botherin me, its hard for all of us at home, but we are somehow managing it. Now the happiness i get comes from the 2 people whom im always talking to or have been there for me, Paul n Chitra, Chitra has been always there eva since ite days.. her family knows abt me, to me chitz is like a sister i never had. Thats how much i like her. We sometimes give in to each jus to avoid hurtin one another, thats the sweetest part in our frendship. LoVe Ya Di!! The True love, the soulmate, the friend all i thout wouldnt be.. thats how u turned out to be now. Guess this is wat fate is. Everything seemed okay, everyone seemed happy. Your parents ur aunt ur bro all had all the nice things to say. Now when all u said to me abt them, they think your not puttin in ur effort, your lost in ur own world, ur not proving them that u can do well, u act as if u dun need them anymore! All they think the reason behind is "ME!", they question if i wud stay by u thru ur ups n downs, they doubting if im gonna be there, wat more worse can there be?? All this is mean, wen they didnt like me from the start why pretend to? if they thought i wud leave u why say all that they said. Why do they have to be so nice to me n then do all this.. i guess all this words were caused out of anger. I understand, im sure she didnt mean what she said, haiz!! all i wanna say is i love my baby wit all my heart.. no matter who tries to seperate us.. "can go fly kite!!" Love ya baby!!




•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
12:50 AM


YThursday, September 14, 2006


GrOwiN
Today is Our 4 years and 7 month of knowing each other, the day he also proposed to me at sinda for the very first time with a beautiful peach coloured rose. How on earth was i looking at that point of time, u were in ur sch uni.. brings back lots of the past. Thinkin abt all that does bring a smile.. why wont it.. all you did to impress me, all u wanted to say but endin up jus swallowin ur words. From the shy guy who hardly looks at me while he talks.. to the guy know who looks at my eyes n starts to blabber. We have been frends for this long.. although ur the love of my life now, im always ur fren whose shoulder is always there for u and to all my frends.. I dunno if i have made a good fren, but u guys mean awhole lot to me, I mite have said mean things, as i always say my mouth is my biggest villain, im sorry if i have hurt anyone in anyway.. I treasure all ur frendships.. chitra balqis jane u gals have been the closest gfs i have eva had.. i want our frendship to grow till we end up loosin our memories. All this thought jus ran thru my mind wen i started this post. Im blessed to have ppl like u all in my life.. My day today was really pathetic.. havin my cramps which can kill me, was really bored cos my baby was out the whole day and im sure he is exhausted.. n ya he hasnt even wished me.. =(, was lyin in bed for most of the day, watched tv.. and here i am waitin for the darlz to get their ass online.. There yet another dreadful day has passed and all i have been doin is gaining weight i guess...




•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
11:10 PM


Y


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with so much in my head, this urge is killin me.. i know i have to get rid off it!! i need to go sleep to stop it!!


•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
12:42 AM


YWednesday, September 13, 2006


Thinkin about it..

U know jus talkin abt him to someone or just thinking abt how he has been in my love.. just makes me feel so proud of him.. im proud of u da.. proud of what a person u have become. The responsibilities u take charge of at home, in school and when ur wit me. Im happy just thinkin abt us. I can neva be happier when i know now that ur the one im gonna be with.. i jus wish i didnt go thru wat i went thru before, but becos of the other person is when i realise my love for u, thats y wen he asked me back and when i was out with him, i realise my heart wasnt there.. i didnt feel the way i used to feel wit him. My heart was only wantin to know what u were doing? that way i realised that its u i wanted to be with.. after all the times he hurt me, all the things he shudnt have done, after i knew what he really was like. The pain was unbearable.. but i got over it all becos of u, with u bein there it felt like u took the pain away. With all my mood swings and all my temper, u are still able to say to me" I Love U Baby.." that is something which cannot be replaced wit anything. When u say somethin to me, i know u really mean it, i may not be the person u see to myself, but i know u hate it wen i go "ya rite!! just shut up paul!" =) hahaha now i know how annoyin i can get.. but hey never the less its me.. n tts how im always gonna be.. and i know u love me for tat.. muax bee.. ur jus wonderful.. u r the sweetest guy ive known..




•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
2:35 PM


YMonday, September 11, 2006


BLOGGING
I have got lots to blog about.. jus dunno wen to start, it maybe my laziness and no rite timing. haiz!! funeral, relationships, misconception on how people look at me. i dunno wat else is there... all i have to say now..im blessed for the ppl i have in my life.. although things dun happen the way i want them too.. im sure one way or another life has to go on... my dreams about going into poly has been crushed! i have other responsibilities to handle! Just wish my frends get what they want.. love u all!! Muax!!


•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
3:29 PM


YMonday, September 04, 2006


Parents will neva Understand!!

Are we asking for alot.. study, work, wat r u doin?, wat do u want to do, why u wasting time, why arent u looking for a job, why didnt u do ur o's properly, why this why tat... Its very simple to ask all this questions.. if we knew the answers we wud tell u! All i m askin for is trust faith happiness in this family and a little freedom.. is tat tooo much to ask for?? why is it wen we are hurtin inside, worryin for our future. It seems to u parents tat we arent puttin an effort in our lives, and we simply cant be bothered! Have u people forgotten its our life, and we are more worried then you are.. if everythin goes the way we plan it too.. why do u think im sittin at home and listenin to all this shit!, all u ppl care is wat others say.. wat they will think, how can u do this?, look how their children are doing? and look at u!! Gosh i have a heart.. u dun let me open up to u, dun blame me wen i find soemone for myself to open up too.. u dun tell me wats rite n wrong in a proper manner, dun blame me wen i think my frends are better in advising. Ur upset abt my studies fine, dun bring my personal life into this.. its not as if u didnt go thru it wen u were young, why is it diff for us n u? Why didnt u study then? All im tryin to say is.. im not askin for much, im not like other gals not comin home, comin home drunk, or not even comin home, got myself pregnant, or club. If i didnt care i wudnt be home rite now, but lookin at it, those children who do all tat are much appreciated n loved by their parents. They seem to give them the rights and encourage them too. so wat is so wrong wit me.. if i cud do somethin i swear i wud. Pls dun forget we have hearts too.. Gosh screw every indian aunties or uncles who cant stop gossipin abt others, its cos of u screwed up ppl tat our lives are miserable, pls look behind ur god damn back before pointin at others! Chitz.. we will do wat we want di, if its money is all they think abt.. let them be, we jus follow our dreams.. LoVe Ya.. Bee.. ur support n all is always there for me!! I love u da..


•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
12:12 AM


YSaturday, September 02, 2006


KaaDhal

hmm... interestin title aint it.. hahaha!! happens n lives in everyone.. 2 ppl from diff walk of life.. can actually share their lives together, ppl has done lots of things for the word love, everyone will for sure go thru fallin in love in their life... some ppl only fine true love after their marraige, comin straight to the point, Me n my bee.. despite our squabbles, arguements n all tat small small quarrels which is needed in every relationship, everything feels soo true, so real, i have no worries abt our future, i know he wants to do anythin n everythin he can jus to spend his rest of his life with me. I wish everyone meets their special someone someday... Chitra is yet to find hers.. and im sure she will be the best partner anyone can eva have..




•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
9:45 AM