Is tat all i meant to u...
Well with all the memories i had of him the whole day of yest n feelin so lost all of a sudden, i actually received msgs from him was realli glad to receive but of cos i neva wanna show so i replied n all n i stopped cos i didnt want him to continue n try talkin to me n all.. Later on my best frend's bf met his camp fren on the bus.. so wen they were talkin my bro asked his frend abt my ex bf n asked if he was attached n tat guy said yes n all, so my bro msged me saying ur guy didnt even spare time to fins a gal u know he already attached.. in tat moment i felt my heart bein ripped out n jus lettin it drop n break into a million pieces!!!wat i said was " wat the hell was he thinkin u mean this is all i meant to him, n where are his promises n love speeches he gave me?? all tat was jus lies again ah??"So my bro was tryin to cheer me up n all trying to tell me wat a relationship i was in n all, but do u think i actualli realise tat he is rite?? no!! at tat moment i was dyin to hear my ex on the phone n see him soo badly.. i actualli replied my ex bf's msgs cos i told him he need not need to lie cos i can get info n all n he replied n we ended up quarrelin tat he actualli called i normally dun ans his calls but since i was dyin i picked up i spoke as if i was not interested but the fact was i was soo happy i dunno y my heart was happy listenin to the voice which once i used to beleive n trust in..well i didnt let the conversation go long jus made him think tat i m not into talkin n hung up.. I jus realised tat how much im telin myself tat im soo fine without him but in real im havin a hard time, i still feel the love i have for him is soo much tat its hard for me to forget him,but i m neva gonna go back with him cos he is not like how i wanted him to be.. Love i have for u is still as strong as how it is wen we first were together, but the fact which hurts the most is even in my dreams i can neva have u or be with u cos u belong to someone else... So jus wanna wish him all the best in watever he does n his memories will always stay within me which will neva fade away..
•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
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