It takes a minute to like someone,
 It takes an hour to love someone,
It takes a life time to forget someone.
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YTuesday, March 20, 2007



Hey everyone.. i know its been long.. its jus ive got quite a number of things in my head.. Family.. Future.. Frenz.. Jus lost a fren who has been there thruout my ups and downs for the last 10 yrs.. I jus wish things were settled and solved in a better way, things blew up and a small issue became a major one.. My dear sweetie who has got to be strong for the operation she is abt to go thru.. pick urself up and pls jus get this done and over wit so tat u can be back on track to annoy the rest of my life.. worryin abt a screwed up relationship wit a dumbwit isnt gonna do u any good.. He is a jerk for the starters.. I know u will meet ppl worthy then this looser.. Nori i hope ur ok, u have been sick for the past few days.. i also hope things between u and him are better.. Chitra congrats on gettin into poly..Im really happy for ya, if only i also applied wit ya and probably wud have gotten in too.. But situations where i have to work instead.. haiz!!
I think its every child's dream to have loving parents towards themselves and to their kids.. Lets jus say i have not come from tat kinda family.. It has been a broken one a long time ago.. Bein Hurt and Cries is all i have mostly seen in my family.. Im really affected by it.. admittin it, im mentally affected and those who are close to me know tat... me being afraid of everythin my self esteem my will and confidence.. Paul i know u want me to change my thoughts abt myself.. i know u love me to death and i trust u awhole lot.. U always say im the best to u, i do like myself now cos of the love and happiness i can give to u.. All u say is wat i truly wanna believe my heart does but my head ponders... Im afraid i seriously am... 2 to 3 yrs time im gonna be married to the most amazin person.. of cos i will have a family with his side too.. Will i be a gd wife? will his side still like me as much as they love me now? will i make everyone happy.. With all the mess i have seen in my family all that is happenin now.. thinkin abt it makes my head hurt real bad.. all this is in my head.. i jus had to let it out..
Paul u have been workin and ur extremely exhuasted.. tellin u all this after a hard day at work, im sure u will be upset or angry.. i hope u understand.. I have no doubt tat u love me paul.. i jus dun know why, i guess im jus afraid of not wantin to become like my parents.. wit the amt of hurt everyone has here it scares me.. I know my thinkin will change da.. i know it will jus need lots of time and patience.. Wit u by my side i know i can get over anything.. jus promise to be there till my very end MiMi.. I always envy people wit a happy family, im sure every family has its prob.. but a family filled wit love is the best family eva.. I have always wished for things to get betta at home.. wished my dad would realise his mistakes and change.. I guess tat will neva happen cos i have been wishin for the past 23 yrs.. I jus hope im a gd person or a good woman.. I betta get to bed.. head hurts real bad.. NitEz Everyone.. I love u alll!! Muax!!


•I LoVe The Way U LuV Me*.
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